It was simply all in my head, that’s what I kept on telling myself.  I have to ask though, how can my mind manipulate me when at the end of the day IT'S MY MIND?

I believe in mind over body as I believe that the cause justifies the means.  It's all common sense to me, but there is conflict somewhere.  I'm not undermining the great work of some of the brightest minds known to humanity, nonetheless when it comes to the mind & body relationship, there should be harmony somewhere down the line.  I heard or read about instances where the mind overwrites the body in negative manners.  So my question is, how do we make the mind work for us instead of against us?  I know for a fact it's possible, identifying the switch is another ball game.

My wife agrees with one therapist that told me the onset of my MS was the work of my mind.  I have to pull a Mohammed and say, what?  Do I have "Darth Vader" in my head?  How and why would I bring such a thing to myself?  I mean there is common sense and nonsense!

I met a life coach yesterday [Taymour Qabazard www.guiding-light.net].  He pointed out that what it was that was pulling me down was the way I was thinking, but when I told him that I wasn’t thinking he told me to think and reflect more!  I realized that the only way to overcome whatever was putting me down was to visualize the opposite.  We exercised visualizations together, and created video clips of what should be done.  Another point was making a deal with myself, to take each week at a time, not actually leaping long leaps.  By getting out of my comfort zone one step at a time, I would be creating a new norm (a new comfort zone).

It was also brought to my attention that I need to identify my goals, small they may begin, to create a purpose of my existence.  He created a diagram

He described my demon (MS) to be the villain, described me to be the Victim, and Nouf to be the Hero.  Then came the question, do I like the setup?  He asked who would I like to be? My answer was quick and rash, I quickly chose the hero. He pointed out an alternative, which was genius, he said why stay in the triangle in the first place?

It is clearly a state of mind,  if I keep on reminding myself of the triangle I WILL MAKE A HOME OUT OF IT!

We brought up several examples of remarkable individuals, that were visionaries without knowing it.  They all visualized themselves achieving the unachievable without knowing it, they just made that thing that worked with them a way of life.

He explained the happiness secret, and how it can be achieved through the enrichment and balance of:  Pleasure, Challenge and Purpose. 

  Happiness and/or fulfillment comes from the middle ground (combination) of the three factors.

I agreed to visualize my day before hand and to challenge myself by choosing not to rather than saying often that I can't.

I also need to reflect on what I did, and what it was that really made me happy and gave me a sense of purpose; and do more of that.

"Madness is doing the same thing over & over again and expecting a different result" Albert Einstein.